Everything seems to be bothering me today, and I hate days like this. But what is getting to me the most is having to ask everyone to do things for me. It's getting old and it's only day 9. I like to think of myself as independent, I do things for myself and don't like to ask for help. I am self-sufficient. Now I just feel like a burden or, as my colleagues and I used to call some students, a PITA (short for Pain In The Ass).
Life is not perfect (though some people seem to think it is) and anyone who expects it to be is sorely mistaken. I never asked for my life to be flawless, I just need a break. I am hoping this break will come on May 7th, and I can have my everyday life back. It would be silly for me to ask questions like "why does this happen to me?" because I really detest questions like this. It's like asking why the sky is blue, it doesn't matter. Everybody gets dealt a different deck, I just think that sometimes the cards you draw are the unlucky ones. And it's okay because life has a way of evening out. I had an awful labor and birth with E (and if you think I am being over dramatic, let me tell you about it sometime) but I got a beautiful, perfect little girl because of it. When life hands you lemons, just wait for them to ripen. Give it some time, and you'll be sipping that lemonade basking in the sunshine of life.
Right now, my lemons are ripening, but they are not there yet. When I am holding my healthy little boy in my hands, that will be my lemonade, and I can't wait to taste it!
Ally, people are more than willing to help in any way, shape or form because you are the strong person who DOESN'T moan, groan or complain, so when you do need assistance (like now) we are more than happy to jump in and do what we can to get you, John, Emma, and "Baby Boy Rottman" to a safe and healthy point of of drinking your lemonade.
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